Inside...

Inside is a person that no one may ever see, if you don't believe in

yourself and shine brightly!



About Me

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I am wide open, but very closed up sometimes. I enjoy the company of love ones (family, friends, companions). I like to write, read, sing, laugh, dance, and chill. I want to find the true meaning of it all. Well, life is what I mean. I am a friend to many, and I have a few friends. There is so much to me. I am not a complex puzzle of 1,003 pieces, but there is more to me than what the eye sees.

Food For Thought

If I am hurt, please do not laugh at me. If you don't and reach your hand
out to lift me up, that makes this inhumane world more humane for me. If I cry,
please don't disregard my tears. It may just be the door opener to you
getting to know your TRUE self.

Tuesday, June 7, 2011

Realization


How do you start these blog things off again? Do I say hello to the reader? Or do I just start writing? LOL. Well thank you for reading my blog, reader. I have reached a realization. I was thinking about my life and trying to make sense of the whole setup. Then I realize there is something great that I must do. I am going through a stage where I will do something that will change the world in a positive way. It always seems that we look at the world through the eyes of others. We celebrate their work: Shakespeare's plays, Alexander Graham Bell's telephone invention, George Washington Carver's creative ideas with peanuts, Martin Luther King Jr.'s dream (still being fulfilled), Obama's presidency, and so many others.

I am wondering what is God's will in my life. Am I suppose to find the cure to some ailment? Or am I supposed to create a reading program to save readers who struggle from the time they begin learning until they just give up? Or am I supposed to motivate my fellow women and men to go the extra mile to make a change in their lives in a positive way, therefore changing the lives of others around them?

I awoke this morning to the same scene: hot rays of sunlight creeping through the blinds, the air conditioner running, and just the atmosphere of existence around me. I threw my feet off the bed and said, I have unaccomplished dreams floating through my mind. I pushed the procrastinator off the wheel of my life, and I grabbed it. I looked aroud and smiled because at first I was like, "Is it possible to get in control of me?"

We always try to control the outside of our being because we worry about others trying to take control of the situation. The situation is me, and I was on auto-pilot. I haven't been moving though.

I had a realization today. It is time for a change. Thank God that he spoke to me and said, "Don't fear my child. You can do all things through Jesus Christ who strengthens you."

Now that is Expression of the Soul: Issue 1.

Thursday, January 27, 2011

Escape From Myself


Breathe in deeply
Feel the pain from the internal ache
Similar to a response of extreme working out
But it truly is a workout of life
Take hits daily
Silencing your voice for the sake of commitment
It hurts but it is more
Comfortable, convenient, secure
Than being alone by saying good-bye
You roll around with the struggle
You inhale and exhale it like a cigarette
You carry it around like a purse
Holding it close to you
As if someone would want to steal what you are going through
But sometimes we covet what we don’t see
Painful situation covered in beautiful wrapping
I want to run, hide, jump and dive
Into a sea where I am free
To be me
Not worrying about feelings of others
Or whether their skin will bleed from the things I say
I want you girl to come out
Don’t keep running away from me
And then when you are far away
I have to pray
That I know who I am
And I will be able to adapt to change
But keep my brain
Not cry on the inside
And let smiles rain
That will eventually drive me insane
I need to be caressed and not feel guilty
That is what I want to be
I want to be me
I want me
I need me
I want to be free
Even though I need you.

Monday, January 10, 2011

Snowy Day in the "ATL"


It is amazing how pretty the world becomes with a blanket of snow on it.