It Just Feels Right

Taking a risk

Taking a chance

Daring my self

to place my heart in your hand

Floating in this empty space

trusting you will catch me

when I get ready to say yes

and embrace this liberty

I've been through so many things

Drama and pain almost seemed necessary

but in the end my heart was broken

and tears that  fell were very heavy

I knew the names

of the Strangers that surrounded me

but they were pictures

that were not a part of my eternity

I am willing to do this dance

I am willing to take this chance

I am interested in your romance

I am willing to let go

Roll and stroll

Just let go

No more control

let my arms drop

Forgive, forget, and release this hold

I want to give you my time

Please don't take it for granted

in you my seed of love is planted

It just feels right.

It's Time For A New Me

The way it used to be
just does not do it for me
I was walking around in a shell
and it took a breeze for me to tell
that what I want to be real
will never be revealed
If I do not take full control of the reigns
and slap those horses on the hineys
Tell them where I want to go
what I want to see
That I haven't become stagnant
and excitement calls my name
and my true IDENTITY I will claim.
No more worrying about what "they" will say
whether "they" will walk with me
I have someone greater on my side
and within
Who sits closer than a brother
and gives me peace that no one could ever lend
I know me
I know who I used to be
Discouragement is no longer a dark cloud over my head
and my spirit will not be laid to rest
I have risen
I am here
I see clearer now
No more doubt
No more shame
When you look at me you will see a light
and you will never forget the joy you feel when you say or hear my name!

June 21, 2012

Today was a great day. Well it was hot as the Dickens, but it was still a nice day. I went and purchased some items. My favorite items were the king size pillows and that wonderful bed set. I love when I dress up my room. It makes me feel like a trillion bucks walking and lying down on a million bucks. (I should've been a rapper). I talked to my silly friend, Mrs. E. Then I came home. I am totally about to get back into blogging. Hey I feel like if the reality stars can make money off feeding us silly things, not all reality tv, but most. Hey I can inspire someone with my wonderfully pleasant REAL-to me blog. Be blessed and remember always keep it real with yourself.

Realization

How do you start these blog things off again? Do I say hello to the reader? Or do I just start writing? LOL. Well thank you for reading my blog, reader. I have reached a realization. I was thinking about my life and trying to make sense of the whole setup. Then I realize there is something great that I must do. I am going through a stage where I will do something that will change the world in a positive way. It always seems that we look at the world through the eyes of others. We celebrate their work: Shakespeare's plays, Alexander Graham Bell's telephone invention, George Washington Carver's creative ideas with peanuts, Martin Luther King Jr.'s dream (still being fulfilled), Obama's presidency, and so many others.

I am wondering what is God's will in my life. Am I suppose to find the cure to some ailment? Or am I supposed to create a reading program to save readers who struggle from the time they begin learning until they just give up? Or am I supposed to motivate my fellow women and men to go the extra mile to make a change in their lives in a positive way, therefore changing the lives of others around them?

I awoke this morning to the same scene: hot rays of sunlight creeping through the blinds, the air conditioner running, and just the atmosphere of existence around me. I threw my feet off the bed and said, I have unaccomplished dreams floating through my mind. I pushed the procrastinator off the wheel of my life, and I grabbed it. I looked aroud and smiled because at first I was like, "Is it possible to get in control of me?"

We always try to control the outside of our being because we worry about others trying to take control of the situation. The situation is me, and I was on auto-pilot. I haven't been moving though.

I had a realization today. It is time for a change. Thank God that he spoke to me and said, "Don't fear my child. You can do all things through Jesus Christ who strengthens you."

Now that is Expression of the Soul: Issue 1.

Escape From Myself

Breathe in deeply
Feel the pain from the internal ache
Similar to a response of extreme working out
But it truly is a workout of life
Take hits daily
Silencing your voice for the sake of commitment
It hurts but it is more
Comfortable, convenient, secure
Than being alone by saying good-bye
You roll around with the struggle
You inhale and exhale it like a cigarette
You carry it around like a purse
Holding it close to you
As if someone would want to steal what you are going through
But sometimes we covet what we don’t see
Painful situation covered in beautiful wrapping
I want to run, hide, jump and dive
Into a sea where I am free
To be me
Not worrying about feelings of others
Or whether their skin will bleed from the things I say
I want you girl to come out
Don’t keep running away from me
And then when you are far away
I have to pray
That I know who I am
And I will be able to adapt to change
But keep my brain
Not cry on the inside
And let smiles rain
That will eventually drive me insane
I need to be caressed and not feel guilty
That is what I want to be
I want to be me
I want me
I need me
I want to be free
Even though I need you.

Snowy Day in the "ATL"

It is amazing how pretty the world becomes with a blanket of snow on it.

Running on E (written by The Man behind The Woman)

I woke up this morning with sleep on my mind. Me and my baby was running late for church; we went to the 2 grocery stores afterwards and got caught in the longest self checkout line ever, well it was one lady w/ like 57 items, (just freaking ridiculous). Then we came home and I started on my homework, mad because the assignment I got do is on my flashdrive, which broke 4 months ago (ain't that some ......). So now that I'm lost I get hungry, I start the grill, and cut the grass at the same time (multitasking). While I put the steaks on the grill I cut the back yard. Now it's time to finish my homework and I'm still lost. I am close to being on E..... I have only a quarter of a tank left and I know work is going to drain me till I have nothing left.