Breathe in deeply
Feel the pain from the internal ache
Similar to a response of extreme working out
But it truly is a workout of life
Take hits daily
Silencing your voice for the sake of commitment
It hurts but it is more
Comfortable, convenient, secure
Than being alone by saying good-bye
You roll around with the struggle
You inhale and exhale it like a cigarette
You carry it around like a purse
Holding it close to you
As if someone would want to steal what you are going through
But sometimes we covet what we don’t see
Painful situation covered in beautiful wrapping
I want to run, hide, jump and dive
Into a sea where I am free
To be me
Not worrying about feelings of others
Or whether their skin will bleed from the things I say
I want you girl to come out
Don’t keep running away from me
And then when you are far away
I have to pray
That I know who I am
And I will be able to adapt to change
But keep my brain
Not cry on the inside
And let smiles rain
That will eventually drive me insane
I need to be caressed and not feel guilty
That is what I want to be
I want to be me
I want me
I need me
I want to be free
Even though I need you.
