Holy-Day Season

In a prospective sense...

We haven't left yet for the road trip in a car. I have a feeling about the situation. I am going to write before we go and after we go. To provide you with a picture of what it was like living there as a child, it was quite serene and pleasant. If you ever wanted some clean, fresh air, you would take a whiff there and voila! There was this enormously long dirt road that we would walk up to catch the bus, no matter the season. Now all I do is drive on roads. Well we did have a little version of that road in Trenton, NC until my mom moved into her beautiful queen-dom. Off on a tangent. Get back on track.

So we are going to Trenton, NC to visit family. In retrospect, I felt like they would judge us and make us feel different. Something about us was different. Well my immediate family. My siblings and I were born to be different. As I think about my life, I always was the rogue hair sticking out of the hair style. Wild and free. Expressive. Loving. Caring. Fair. A true learner. I had to be to not repeat things or let's say mistakes more than three or four times. LOL. But hey I am going off on a tangent again.

We are going to visit fam in the state of NC and we are going to celebrate Jesus' b-day. No we do not go bearing gifts. We are the gifts. I hope that we are embraced and not judged. Things will get better for everyone. In advance, I will thank God and his Son for this wonderful Holy-day. He sacrificed his life so that I may live...and also you the reader. I will take lots of pictures and provide captions.

Ending with a shout-out to all educators. Are you not ecstatic that we are off of work for two weeks? Thank God for the Holy-day breaks. Take care.

The Day After the Storm

I am tired but I enjoyed the other day. I got up early and went to the bank and grocery shopping. Have you ever been craving down home cooking? I mean like that bomb macaroni and cheese, turkey wings, and collard greens. As I cruised down the aisles to collect the items for what my older sis calls "celebration food", I smiled on the inside and out. It was like a drug I had been waiting on for a long time...ok maybe I am overdoing it (O-d-in), but hey I am being honest. :-) So then I buy the food from two grocery stores, Publix and Kroger. The whole entire time while I am shopping, I am also hoping that my dog, Prince, does not turn my apartment into a zoo. I left him out to see how he can handle freedom, because Prince + crate = psycho. Oh yes!

So then when I get home, I realize I have my work cut out for me. I wanted to grade papers, wash clothes, and cook dinner. Then on top of that, my mom says she and my baby sis are coming over. So the mild junkiness in my apartment has elevated into an eye sore. So now I have to clean up the den where I prowl...LOL. Seriously it needed to be cleaned. It was getting out of control for me. I cook and clean. Grade cheese, aching muscles in my arm as if I have been working on the railroad like John Henry. But who understands...nobody but the cheese. Not even Prince offered to grade the sharp cheese which was the toughest. O-C (out of control).

So my mom and baby sis shows up and only the collard greens and macaroni are finished. My mom is like why, why, yyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. I know I should have put those turkey wings in two hours ago. But it is truly the stove's fault...lol. I plead the 5th. My fiance gets to the house and we enjoy the turkey wings because my family had to leave because of school in the morning. We ate, he cleaned, then we watched "The Orphan." Totally disturbing movie...but hey check it out. I lain in the bed and prayed that the phone tree would be in effect, but the sky does not seem to cry twice the same amount of water or time. It was great while it lasted but the storm is truly over.

The Engagement

"So how do you plan on spending the rest of your life?" he says. I look at the computer screen and say, "Boy if you don't leave me alone. I have to grade all of these papers." He says with a more serious tone, "Naw seriously, what do you have planned for the rest of your life? Look." I turn around and bam, there it is. He is on one knee with a ring box and guess what is in it. A fruit loop. Naw jk. It was a diamond ring. So beautiful and quite immaculate if you ask me. He made me feel more special than when I got my hair relaxed for the first time. LOL. On a serious note, he made me realize how much of jewel I am and that God chose him just for me. I will write more later. I just wanted to share my initial emotions. In conclusion, don't overdo it all the time...that does not give you room to relax. :-)

Kanye West and Taylor Swift: VMA 2009

It's amazing, which is one line in his song and it also describes his temperament. How and when are the wild things that are done by one okay against another? Especially when they demonstrate such awesome and caring qualities on one hand and then a complete 180 on the other. Before that night I truly did not know about Taylor Swift's genre of music, but Kanye West is all to familiar. He is abrasive, cocky, and unreal at times. The question that I would love an answer to is, why put yourself on the line for a female that is not even your lady? Beyonce looked as though she was miffed by his behavior and speechless Taylor's situation was clearly confirmation that we as a people need to realize that the world does not stop for us and begin rotating again when we snap our fingers. A scripture that resonates through my mind is that "gifts come without repentance." You do not have to live right to be a singer, rapper, dancer, or any gift in this world. Although we have freedom in America, it has unwritten stipulations. Freedom is the not the right to do what you want to do whenever we want to do it, but the ability to do what we ought to do. When we do things in life, we must question our motive. "Was it to heal or kill another's soul/spirit, or build them up?" Then you must ask if you have a selfish gain to attain. Interesting. In closing, I want to remind everyone that life is what you make it or what you fake it to be. You are free to choose which one you want.

Attempting This Journey (June 6, 09)

To simply start something it really does take time. I am trying to start a new beginning in my life which seemed so simple when others were in control of my path. Then all of a sudden they just pushed me out there. These people included, my parents, school administrators and teachers, and friends. Well, I never thought I would fess up that friends controlled the path at first, but they did. Some of them tell you what you want to hear, but the real ones bring it to you so clear. They tell you the truth, even if you receive it as a lie. I am glad that I am out here now. The last five years I had a goal, and now I am set out to complete a task. After you read this, you may say, what is this all about? This is the beginning to a new everything: feeling, sound, taste, view, and aroma. There are times when I will say or show something that is not too pleasing to your senses, but please receive it with an unbiased perspective. That is how we will grow as a people. Always remember to express yourself. No one will know that it feels good or hurts if you are always quiet.